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Morning…

Florida is trying to kill me. How is it that I wake up to 48 degree weather!? I DESPISE the cold, it’s why I love Florida.

I feel like on days like this Floridians should get the day off to snuggle at home, we weren’t built for this crap! That is all.

Hope everyone else is waking up to a bit warmer weather, maybe possibly.

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And another one

Ok, another disastrous Tuesday is on deck. Am I mentally prepared, no. Am I excited, no. Will I survive it, eh maybe.

Hope you all survive your Tuesday!! Good morning!!

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End of day

So I’ve been home for about 2 hours now and have only accomplished watching tik tok and YouTube videos. my next class for school starts tomorrow and I wanted to relax tonight, but I’m feeling restless.

It’s hard to put into words exactly. Almost like I want to scratch off my skin while cleaning the house while doing nothing. It’s odd to say the least.

Reading seemed like a good idea about my mind is t able to focus on words on a page right now, so I’m stuck.

Can anyone relate or explain what’s going on? Maybe my anxiety is ramping up?

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Good Morning!

Alas Monday has arrived and I am back at work. I was a little restless at home, but not necessarily ready to come back either.

Here’s hoping it’ll be a good Monday to start off the week!

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Overwhelmed

I find myself mentally going over all the bills, the tasks, the work, the weight loss, the everything over and over again in my head. I feel like there is so much to do for me to get my life on track, but it exhausts me just thinking about it.

Why is it so difficult to stick to something? Why is it so hard to move forward when I want to so badly? Why do I sabotage myself? I know I know, a lot of questions that many might claim to have the answer to. At the end of the day it all boils down to ME.

I have always had an issue with self love, self care, and laziness. It is not an easy thing to just wake up and be different. My mental strength isn’t all that strong and my will power is low.

Needless to say it makes starting AND FINISHING something difficult for me. It always comes back to the same thing, change my habits. I wish I could just do that. I wish I could just flip a switch and make things better. I wish I could be my own cheerleader and accomplish what I want with my own motivation.