Why is it so hard for me to not please others? Is it so hard to say no every now and then? Sometimes the expectations I have of myself far exceed those others have for me, and though I know this about myself I haven’t been able to change it.
At first helping others and always being the willing volunteer didn’t seem like such a bad thing, but now it’s tiring. I feel like by the time I finish putting others first I’m left too mentally exhausted to do things for myself.
The funny thing is, as I’m typing this right now I’m smiling. Not because I find the situation remotely funny, but because I feel like I’m being totally selfish in feeling this way. I know tomorrow I’ll wake up, start another day, and do nothing different. My mind won’t let me be anything less than what I expect it to be, even if I wish it would.
I sign off with this: Life is not always about others, sometimes its about you taking the pressure off of yourself and saying NO.