I’m forcing myself. I realize it and it sucks. At this point I’ve lost touch with surroundings and am trying to force camaraderie and conversation to mask the anxiety.
I realize it and still do it. Why do I feel like I must socialize? It forces me to fake emotions in just not feeling. But I know if I just sit and space out like I want to the stares will come, or the questions get asked.
I just want to sit and daze and let my mind do what it needs to so I can push the impending panic attack further out.