Yesterday was Thanksgiving and I can say it was half successful and half unsuccessful. I took on the cooking responsibilities because I have some minor (trying to be nice, more like major) control issues. I set myself up for no panic attacks though with the meal I prepped. The morning of was a bit trying… Continue reading Post Thanksgiving Update
This weekend has been filled with so many things that I have LOVED doing. And yet I’m still sad. And not like sad mopey, sad depressed. My Christmas tree is beautiful, I’ve been baking up a storm, and the house is looking better. And yet again there is that overwhelming depressive feeling. I’m hoping my… Continue reading Background sadness
No better way to en the night. Baking is such a great way for me ground myself and just relax. Also helps that the treats are yummy!
I would like to start by saying I am NOT suicidal in the least bit, just in case that thought occured to anyone. There are times to fight and times for stubborness, and then there are times to give in. I feel like I've hit that moment in my mental health journey. I have been… Continue reading Giving In
Such a beautiful day...so why do I feel like absolute shit?
Today’s been better. Seep always seems to help relax my brain. So far my mind hasn’t overly stressed me and I’ve been very productive. Let’s hope tomorrow brings more improvement and less anxiety. Having a nail spa day with my friend will most definitely help that.
I feel like I’m drowning. My brain is unsettled and my mind is coming unhinged. I can’t focus on anything and headache has started and won’t ease with Advil. I don’t understand, I got GOOD news today so why is my brain revolting? I just want to go home and try to ease this mess.
I’ve been decent for so long. And I say decent because it’s ALWAYS there just manageable, not anymore. I’m unfocused, scattered, and feeling off. Normal things that wouldn’t bother me are making me ready or upset. I’m just on edge and slightly paranoid. I’m unsure how to get out of my own head, though I’m… Continue reading Anxiety makes its return