This weeks been rough. I feel like it’s dragged and I’m tired.

I have Monday off which will be really nice. I’m ready to sleep in and do nothing, which won’t be the case because appointments and stuff but whatever.

I hope everyone has a good Thursday!

Morning Meditation

Monday Meditation

I am loved

I am strong

I am pretty

I am smart

I am capable

I make better choices today

Morning Meditation


I had a doctors appointment yesterday for my PCOS and feminine care, things may not be as controlled as I thought. I’m looking at more bloodwork and another ultrasound which is fun, and then hopefully I get more information from there.

After my appointment it was wallow in self pity for an hour and then onward to write my paper which I successfully turned in today.

Life is tough and bumpy and tiring. But I’m making the best of it and trying to push through and make better decisions. Tomorrow starts a new week, and new opportunities for me to do better.

Happy Sunday everyone

Morning Meditation

Happy Saturday!

I have a doctors appointment this morning, blech. Then a bunch of school stuff to do and home stuff to catch up on.

Let me tell you a short story of what happened yesterday. My Friday at work was great, no issues and a very smooth day thankfully. Got home, still feeling good. Then as I was talking with my cousins about hair stuff I told them I don’t feel pretty.

Where that thought came from I’m not sure. I feel like it had been in the back of my mind all week but I never voiced it. When my husband got home I told him the same thing and proceeded to cry my eyes out.

Obviously everyone reassured me and told me that I indeed was pretty, but nevertheless I don’t feel like I am. It goes beyond my weight issues, I just don’t think I am pretty. And it is wrecking me. I’m not sure what to make of this new found reflection, or what exactly brought this on, but I hope I get through it.

I just want to feel pretty.



I started my first business class yesterday, which I was so excited for. Well not anymore. After reading the syllabus and yesterday trying to figure out the assignment my brain exploded.

I got so overwhelmed after a bit of research and maybe two or three sentences written, I called it quits and went to bed.

This morning I still have a lingering headache and I’m not feeling all that great, here’s hoping work doesn’t kick my ass today. I know I can do it, I just gotta break it all down into small steps and go from there.

If anyone has any tips on online schooling drop them in the comments!