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Happy Saturday!

I have a doctors appointment this morning, blech. Then a bunch of school stuff to do and home stuff to catch up on.

Let me tell you a short story of what happened yesterday. My Friday at work was great, no issues and a very smooth day thankfully. Got home, still feeling good. Then as I was talking with my cousins about hair stuff I told them I don’t feel pretty.

Where that thought came from I’m not sure. I feel like it had been in the back of my mind all week but I never voiced it. When my husband got home I told him the same thing and proceeded to cry my eyes out.

Obviously everyone reassured me and told me that I indeed was pretty, but nevertheless I don’t feel like I am. It goes beyond my weight issues, I just don’t think I am pretty. And it is wrecking me. I’m not sure what to make of this new found reflection, or what exactly brought this on, but I hope I get through it.

I just want to feel pretty.

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My brain EXPLODED

I started my first business class yesterday, which I was so excited for. Well not anymore. After reading the syllabus and yesterday trying to figure out the assignment my brain exploded.

I got so overwhelmed after a bit of research and maybe two or three sentences written, I called it quits and went to bed.

This morning I still have a lingering headache and I’m not feeling all that great, here’s hoping work doesn’t kick my ass today. I know I can do it, I just gotta break it all down into small steps and go from there.

If anyone has any tips on online schooling drop them in the comments!

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Morning…

Florida is trying to kill me. How is it that I wake up to 48 degree weather!? I DESPISE the cold, it’s why I love Florida.

I feel like on days like this Floridians should get the day off to snuggle at home, we weren’t built for this crap! That is all.

Hope everyone else is waking up to a bit warmer weather, maybe possibly.

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And another one

Ok, another disastrous Tuesday is on deck. Am I mentally prepared, no. Am I excited, no. Will I survive it, eh maybe.

Hope you all survive your Tuesday!! Good morning!!

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End of day

So I’ve been home for about 2 hours now and have only accomplished watching tik tok and YouTube videos. my next class for school starts tomorrow and I wanted to relax tonight, but I’m feeling restless.

It’s hard to put into words exactly. Almost like I want to scratch off my skin while cleaning the house while doing nothing. It’s odd to say the least.

Reading seemed like a good idea about my mind is t able to focus on words on a page right now, so I’m stuck.

Can anyone relate or explain what’s going on? Maybe my anxiety is ramping up?