A lot has happened this weekend. Too much to process, to much to accept, and too much to have to go through. A new week has started filled with uncertainties and anxieties, but I’m still here. Sometimes that is a win, just waking up and being present is all I have in me. We shall… Continue reading Monday
Life comes at you hard. Shit can happen unexpectedly and there’s nothing we can do about it. This helplessness and powerlessness and not knowing ummm ness is so much apart of my daily anxieties and worry. Having control is a way for me to feel secure and safe, without it i feel like I’m sinking.… Continue reading
With all this COVID-19 I am stressed and beyond tense. I work at an ENT office as a medical scribe/assistant and luckily my amazing physician acquired a mask for me to wear while seeing patients. It has made my worry lessen, but I’m still wound pretty tight. I half wish I can self quarantine and… Continue reading Tense
Today will be better. Yesterday I was panicky and anxious despite my use of Citalopram (I think due to prednisone use for my cough), I was cranky, I was tired, and I was just done with everything. Today I feel more at ease. Today I had yummy banana chocolate chip bread. Today I am looking… Continue reading Yesterday was Tough
Still feeling off this morning. Don’t really want to do much. Unsure what I’m feeling. My minds not focusing or present.
What is happiness? I don't think anyone really knows. I have spent so long trying to figure out what I need to attain just simple, every day happiness. I have found it in moments and instances throughout my life, but never for long periods of time. I guess that's the nature of mental health. I've… Continue reading