I’m forcing myself. I realize it and it sucks. At this point I’ve lost touch with surroundings and am trying to force camaraderie and conversation to mask the anxiety. I realize it and still do it. Why do I feel like I must socialize? It forces me to fake emotions in just not feeling. But… Continue reading Fake It Till You Make It
Panic is building Sadness is growing My mind is racing faster My patience getting thinner I’m done with this day and I’m ready to go home and sleep away all this yucky feeling.
Is it possible to feel positively anxious/panicked? I feel like this last month has been a whirlwind of emotion and changes, mostly happy and little bits of worry. Underneath it all though I feel this panicky anxiety but not as foreboding as it normally is. So again I ask is this some form of positive… Continue reading Positive Panic?
Tomorrow I have my first appointment for a follow up with my primary care doc to go over my repeat blood tests and thyroid ultrasound. I’m hoping everything is starting to get back to normal. Even if it’s not I’m just hoping for answers. I hate not knowing what’s going on with my body. 2:45… Continue reading Anxious
Nothing can ever go easily for my husband and I. Worry after worry and more shit gets thrown on our all ready humongous pile. We’ll persevere though, we’ll keep pushing. End results are worth it and I have to remember that.
That moment where you feel the panic building and there’s nothing you can do sucks. I don’t know why or when or how bad it will be, but I feel it. It’s like knowing a train is going to derail but not knowing at what stop or time. I’m hoping it recedes and nothing comes… Continue reading Panicky
I’m still struggling with health concerns. I had chosen to stop my birth control pill back in April due to a decrease in my, umm intimate life. Little did I know what issues would be uncovered with stopping. 4 months later I finally have my menses again though with a new diagnosis of PCOS (polycystic… Continue reading Motivated