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Morning Meditation

Good Morning!

Alas Monday has arrived and I am back at work. I was a little restless at home, but not necessarily ready to come back either.

Here’s hoping it’ll be a good Monday to start off the week!

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Overwhelmed

I find myself mentally going over all the bills, the tasks, the work, the weight loss, the everything over and over again in my head. I feel like there is so much to do for me to get my life on track, but it exhausts me just thinking about it.

Why is it so difficult to stick to something? Why is it so hard to move forward when I want to so badly? Why do I sabotage myself? I know I know, a lot of questions that many might claim to have the answer to. At the end of the day it all boils down to ME.

I have always had an issue with self love, self care, and laziness. It is not an easy thing to just wake up and be different. My mental strength isn’t all that strong and my will power is low.

Needless to say it makes starting AND FINISHING something difficult for me. It always comes back to the same thing, change my habits. I wish I could just do that. I wish I could just flip a switch and make things better. I wish I could be my own cheerleader and accomplish what I want with my own motivation.

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Long Rest

Tomorrow is the last day of my 5 day weekend. I’m sad that I have to go back to work honestly, but at least I got in a recharge of sorts. The holidays are always nice thanks to the days off without needing to use PTO or sick days, but never give me that satisfaction like an extended weekend.

It’s been nice to do stuff around the house and spend time with the pups and my husband without it being dark, or timed. This week has been busy busy busy, but I still feel more rested than a normal week.

For now there are no plans for tomorrow, and I am secretly hoping nothing will come up. With my husband you never know though. I hope everyone has a great night!

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Thankful

Not quite finished yet but a beautiful start. Hope everyone had a safe and happy thanksgiving!

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Post Monday Things

Yesterday and today have been hectic but good days. So much house work got done, and yet so much is left to do.

But I’m thankful. For my husband that is skilled in most things. For my father in law that is always there when we need him. For my furbabies that always make me smile when I’m stressed or having a rough day.

My school work for the week is 95% done and I’m ahead of schedule which give me time to breathe and help out more at home.

I find that though I am lazy to the core, I have been enjoying putting in work to make our home so much better. It’s been amazing to see how far it’s come in the little over a year since we bought it.

Now for some down time with hubby and pups, and hopefully some cuddles. Have a great night everybody!