Hi again. It’s been a bit of time since I’ve posted, and honestly I debated deleting this blog and just quitting. I never inteded this to be any more than an outlet for my thoughts and frustrations, a place to come and write out what I’m thinking with zero judgement. Somehow my mind started overanalyzing like it does and I turned it into somewhat of a “chore/assignment”. I can’t explain it, as I don’t really understand it fully myself.
Moving on. I’ve got a lot on my plate at the moment. I started school to be an accountant, YAY, and I’m still employed full time. My youngest pup Lucy is still a handful and not fully potty trained, which is greeeaattttt. A lot of house projects have been getting done and will hopefully come to an end early next week!
Lets discuss the biggest issue now. My depression and anxiety. I would say after being on medication since early this year I have noticed an improvement. My panic attacks are not as frequent and I find myself less ruminating less throughout the day. However, my bad days still out number my good days, my moods are still fluctuating, and I feel like I have plateaued. Is that possible? To plateau when it comes to depression? I debate increasing medication and just trying to dig down deep and exercise. I don’t want to do the things that I enjoy doing, let alone exercise and “eat right”. That being said, I need to make a change, FOR GOOD.
I’m taking my safe space back and letting this be my outlet again. Baby steps, I need to walk before I can run. This is day one of my reset, day one of the new blog space, and day one of many many more!