I’m exhausted. I’m unsure why. Even when I do nothing I feel like I’ve been going for days.
Today was a clusterfuck That’s it. Did it get better as the day progressed? Yes. Did it go by quickly? Yes. Did it still suck? YES. Days like today remind me to appreciate the lazy days. The days where maybe work isn’t the busiest, and yes it may be dragging, but at least it’s not… Continue reading
Struggling to focus on my mental health when my actual health is all over the place. I wish there was more to say or more to do but my brain is zapped. I can’t think and honestly I don’t want to fake I’m ok. I’m not ok
It’s time for bed. Dogs are walked, apartment is locked up, and ac is just where we like it. Cue racing thoughts and worries. My mind won’t shut off and it’s just white noise of random anxieties and worries. Some legitimate concerns and others seem more trivial but worries nonetheless. Hopefully I’ll calm down enough… Continue reading Goodnight mind
Adrift in a sea of unknowns and uncertainties. Cast away on a desolate island in my mind. Bereft and alone in the chaos that is my emotions. Not even sleep and daydreams can give me peace.
Yesterday and today have been trying. It sucks when you can’t depend on your own family, when you can’t just know that if you can’t they can. When given a situation I always give 110%, granted most times it ends in a panic attack, but still I give all of me. Maybe it’s unrealistic to… Continue reading
My ups and downs are happening more frequently. Instead of days apart I’m switching throughout the day. Nights are getting suckier, sleeping has been sucky, once again I’m just exhausted.
After a long. Long. Longgg day at work I’m feeling so so tired. That seems to be the theme of my life, TIRED. Thinking is exhausting I just want to turn off my brain and shut down for a while. All my energy and motivation is zapped, I have nothing in me right now. Hopefully… Continue reading Sleepy