My Friday! Why better way to kickstart it then with Chick Fil A brefast!! It’s the little things that make me happy.
Today is going to be a great way to end the week, I can feel it. It helps that I’m at my desk instead of the room today. That means I get to help out and do my notes without the pressure of the doc.
Let’s get this day started!
So as expected today was a long day. I’m tired so we ordered in tonight for dinner which was yummy, although my stomach did NOT agree. Once again I am doing school work. Why?!
I’m just being slightly dramatic, it’s really not that bad. I wish I could focus on school and home full time, but alas I am not financially stable in that way. It does make me wonder if I will ever get to that point though. How many people live there earlier years busting there asses to reach a place where they are financially comfortable only to look back and realize it was all a waste. I don’t want that to be my husband and mines future. I want to be able to enjoy the here and now while keeping up with bills and stuff.
I wish things were different, but I’ll keep pushing for that. School is the first step to that end goal. It is never too late to change things up and make things better. Now on to more school work!
I forgot I’m off on Friday…so today is my Thursday!!! That made me beyond happy this morning.
It also helps that my favorite doc is in today, that always makes my day better. I hope it’s an easy going day, but I have a feeling it’s gonna be a late one.
I hope your day is amazing!
As I expected the day was a crappy one. I work for such amazing doctors, but that doesn’t always make up for days like today. No matter how ahead I feel I am always one step behind.
Sometimes I feel like I am ungrateful. I have a job when some people have lost theirs during this pandemic, I make above average pay when some people don’t, and yet I still complain. It’s always been told to me that even though you have problems other people have it worse, does that mean I can’t complain? That’s the feeling I have, a feeling like I have no right to complain seeing as others are in far worse situations.
I am only human though. “First world problems” sadly do exist, and I am no always going to be happy just because someone else is struggling more. My brain is normally mush by now, but I have school work. So bye for now and maybe I’ll post a bit later after I finish assignments and my brain is REALLY REALLY mush.
Hi again. It’s been a bit of time since I’ve posted, and honestly I debated deleting this blog and just quitting. I never inteded this to be any more than an outlet for my thoughts and frustrations, a place to come and write out what I’m thinking with zero judgement. Somehow my mind started overanalyzing like it does and I turned it into somewhat of a “chore/assignment”. I can’t explain it, as I don’t really understand it fully myself.
Moving on. I’ve got a lot on my plate at the moment. I started school to be an accountant, YAY, and I’m still employed full time. My youngest pup Lucy is still a handful and not fully potty trained, which is greeeaattttt. A lot of house projects have been getting done and will hopefully come to an end early next week!
Lets discuss the biggest issue now. My depression and anxiety. I would say after being on medication since early this year I have noticed an improvement. My panic attacks are not as frequent and I find myself less ruminating less throughout the day. However, my bad days still out number my good days, my moods are still fluctuating, and I feel like I have plateaued. Is that possible? To plateau when it comes to depression? I debate increasing medication and just trying to dig down deep and exercise. I don’t want to do the things that I enjoy doing, let alone exercise and “eat right”. That being said, I need to make a change, FOR GOOD.
I’m taking my safe space back and letting this be my outlet again. Baby steps, I need to walk before I can run. This is day one of my reset, day one of the new blog space, and day one of many many more!
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