That moment where you feel the panic building and there’s nothing you can do sucks.
I don’t know why or when or how bad it will be, but I feel it. It’s like knowing a train is going to derail but not knowing at what stop or time.
I’m hoping it recedes and nothing comes of it, but I know better by now. So I’ll just wait and try to prepare as best I can.
Let my obsessive thoughts commence and my controlling personality crumble under the knowledge that this I cannot control.
Can’t focus. As much as I like my job my mind is restless. So many thoughts of just random nonsense that I can’t put together.
Quiet is nonexistent, peace is out of reach. Will these thoughts going round and round please please just cease.
But I still worry
I had a panic attack yesterday. Triggered by a conversation we were having amongst family. Needles to say I’m still feeling after effects and am not all there mentally.
Time to reset the clock and start again!