My anxiety is still there. Let’s get through today and then see what happens.
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Still there
Tag: panic
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A storm in my head
All week I’ve been zoned out, I’m trying to put on a more positive vibe but I don’t think it’s working so well. I still am having trouble focusing, my mood is just blah/sad, and my mind keeps obsessing over every little thing.
Honestly I’d prefer to have a massive panic attack than to feel like this every day, I’m drained. I haven’t been sleeping, which I’m sure isn’t helping, but how the heck can I hush my overactive mind! I feel like just giving in and sleeping all weekend until I calm down again.
What has me more concerned is I am totally clueless as to what my trigger is/was. Usually I can distinguish the cause and work it out in my brain even if it takes a day or so, I can’t pinpoint any scenario that I haven’t all ready moved on from.
At this point I’m highly considering seeing a psychiatrist to be put on some form of low anxiety medication. I’ve been struggling with this because I don’t want to be medicated, I want to be strong enough to feel better on my own. The thing is I’m too exhausted to exercise, I can’t focus enough to even get through a freaking work day, and eating right is so hard when I just want to binge eat sweets.
To medicate or not to medicate? Who knows at this point, I just want to feel normal. I just want to be me again.
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New day
New possibilities and opportunities. Woke up less out of it so fingers crossed it’s gonna be a good day!
My head has been in a foggy, jumbled, mixed up state since I woke up this morning. My day was a blur and I could not concentrate or focus, though I promise I tried. I’m unsure if this is residual from the weekend or just a crappy anxiety filled day.
Like I told my husband earlier, I’ve grown used to the paranoia and feelings that I am not sufficient, I battle those thoughts daily and normally come out minimally affected. The mental exhaustion and haziness I have not experienced in months and months though, that has me slightly more on edge now.
Tonight I have no reflection, no positive thought, no epiphany or realization. Tonight I am just MENTALLY DRAINED and want to sleep. Goodnight all, I hope tomorrow brings happier and more positive feelings.
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Honestly exhausted
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