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Christmas Week

This week is a short one for me thankfully. Tomorrow is my Thursday and Tuesday my Friday, which makes me very very happy.

It’s a hard time for me due to my moms passing on the 23rd which always gets me. I can already feel it coming on and I can’t stop it, but hopefully it’s better than it normally is.

My cousins came to visit me today at my house which was a lot of fun and brought my spirits up. One of them lost her mom earlier this year and being as I am the only other person who has lost their mother it was nice to chat with her and let her know I am always here for her.

It was nice in a way to have somebody understand after all these years the hurt my sister and I have dealt with. Not that I would ever in a million years wish that on anyone. In this time of healing for her I just want her to know I am there and empathize completely.

So, here is to a hopefully decent week and the start of a great Christmas.

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More News

I’m off to see an endocrinologist! Long story short still having wonky blood tests so that’s my next step.

In other news I still have a solid B in my current class which is awesome! This business class has been the most challenging one yet, so I’m pleased with myself.

Christmas is around the corner and that makes me really happy. After the crap that’s been 2020 I NEED a good Christmas that is stress free and just relaxing.

Oh and the biggest thing for me anyways, I GET MY HAIR COLORED TODAY! First time going to a salon setting with not my aunt doing it so I’m super excited!!

Hope everyone’s Saturday is going well!!

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Almost the weekend

This weeks been long and has dragged. We’re not even to Friday yet and I’m dead.sube it’s because Christmas is next week and I only work Monday and Tuesday?

I’m excited for the holidays and just ready to move into 2021 and be done with 2020. My brain needs a break and my back hurts.

Here’s to hopefully a good Thursday!

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Holidays and COVID

It’s that time of year where festivities usually are in full swing and plans for Christmas and New Years are being set, and I am saying no to all of it.

I work at an ENT office as a medical assistant/scribe and as such we are pretty high on the list of exposure because most people we see have symptoms COVID can cause and we work in the area of the nose that houses the virus. Being that I’m in the rooms while scopes and the like are being done I don’t feel comfortable attending family events because I don’t want to risk getting my family sick if I am asymptomatic, or contracting from them if they happen to be positive.

I’m not going to lie it’s hard though. December is a rough month emotionally all ready with the passing of my mom on the 23rd and family really helps. The potential risk is too scary though. My family is large and a lot of them older so why risk it?

Here’s to a holiday of love from afar and lots of virtual chats.

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Happy Saturday!

I have a doctors appointment this morning, blech. Then a bunch of school stuff to do and home stuff to catch up on.

Let me tell you a short story of what happened yesterday. My Friday at work was great, no issues and a very smooth day thankfully. Got home, still feeling good. Then as I was talking with my cousins about hair stuff I told them I don’t feel pretty.

Where that thought came from I’m not sure. I feel like it had been in the back of my mind all week but I never voiced it. When my husband got home I told him the same thing and proceeded to cry my eyes out.

Obviously everyone reassured me and told me that I indeed was pretty, but nevertheless I don’t feel like I am. It goes beyond my weight issues, I just don’t think I am pretty. And it is wrecking me. I’m not sure what to make of this new found reflection, or what exactly brought this on, but I hope I get through it.

I just want to feel pretty.