mixture of things

I’m feeling jittery but in control what opposite sensations to have. Is it weird to miss the chaos that was my mind pre medication?

I mean I know I was slowly getting less and less functional but at least it was a constant if that makes any sense.

I’m guess I’m just wondering if my feeling of listlessness is normal to feel after no longer feeling that deep depression I felt for so long, or maybe something is not right?

Either way I’m anxious to get home and for Friday to be here and gone all ready.